I'll Try Defying Gravity

So you know that feeling when you have something that you really want to talk about... but you just can't? Yeah. That feeling. I have it now. I mean, I thought sharing was caring! But, as it turns out, if I were to share, it would be the exact opposite of caring. ...E-Except, I really wanna talk about it. GAH SUCH A CONDUNDRUM. Well, not really, because I know I'm not going to share. But it knaws at me from the inside.

Your local, neighborhood Arthoniel is growing up and doing things and being mature. Ain't that somethin'? Never thought it'd start to actually happen to me. But there you go.

In other news, lskdjfdlskjfl FIREFLY. I'm one episode away from having seen the entire series. It's so good. And Fox is a collective bitch. I'm just sayin'.

...I mean, seriously, how does a nerd friend group get drama?? Like, just... how does that happen?? And the thing is... I can't really say I mind. It's been so long since I've had any real drama in my life... so long as no one is getting hurt, it's not so bad, right?

Some of my friends and I had a movie night. Two nights in a row. For the past two nights... the two before this one, I mean. It was nice. We watched Disney movies! Aladdin, The Little Mermaid, and Mulan... and then we also watched Happy Feet and Who Framed Roger Rabbit. Good times were had by all. And DISNEY.

I absolutely love my piano keyboard. I still don't know what to name her. But I love her.

I go home for winter break on Tuesday, by the way. And for the first time... I'm not 100% certain that I quite want to go. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am SO RIDICULOUSLY EXCITED to go home to New York so I can be in my city again, and for an extended length of time and everything. I miss my city SO, SO much, and I can't wait to be back. I can wait to go home and be with my family again. Besides which... I'm gonna miss my friends here. A lot. A lot. I keep telling them to visit the City over the break and everything, but... gah. I'm gonna miss Brandeis over the break.

Anyway, I gotta shut up and go and respond to my Para tags. It's been a day now and I haven't done it, and... while I have excellent reasons for not having been there... I still need to go do that. So I will. Fun times abound!  :D

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

( I wonder how many people will actually read this? )

...That didn't work as well as I had hoped for getting the reminder that I am exactly one hour and seven minutes too late for signing up for some of the classes I really want to take next semester, and I won't be able to add them until the next semester starts. In other words, I'm a moron. That, and I have to do a thing for my UWS that I really don't want to do, and that's in addition to my paper that I'm currently writing. So. Um. Yeah. That wasn't entirely helpful.  -_-;;

So I saw The Matrix today, for the first time. A few thoughts:

1) How did it take me so long to see this movie?!
2) Unf, Neo.
3) Unf, Trinity.
4) I DON'T SEE ANYTHING IN THE SAME WAY ANYMORE.
5) DEM CAMERA ANGLES AND SHOTS. Those were sexy.
6) Those were really good special effects for 1999!
7) Everyone in that movie is just such a ridiculous BAMF.
8) I totally want to watch it again. Now. Like, right now. It was just that awesome.

Dude, it was even more of a mindfuck than Neon Genesis Evangelion. Which I also watched for the first time, the other day. Well, not all of it... I saw the first half of the first of the new movies. Which is to say, I saw the first half of 1.11: You are (Not) Alone. And don't get me wrong, that was really good too! But it was also incredibly strange. And The Matrix was even more so.

This has just been a very mindfucky weekend so far, and it hasn't even really entirely started yet.  XD

...My weekend ended with me and some friends searching things on Urban Dictionary like "dictionary", our names, and "cock punch." I would recommend it as a pasttime and activity.

And then one of my guy friends tried to get me to rate his butt, and that is when I chose to leave. But nonetheless.

I suppose my conclusion here is? I like college.

STUDYING FOR MY PSYCH MIDTERM: majority DONE
8-10 PAGE SATIRE PAPER: not-quite-as-large-a-majority-but-still-a-majority DONE!
TIME AVAILABLE TO SLEEP TONIGHT: EXISTS!

I know, I'm shocked too. It's all crap, all of it. But I still have it, and that's what's important.

I'm not 100% done with everything though, so to those of you who have them... keep those inspirational GIFs coming!! No, seriously, I love them all. They're all made of utter win.

So I was going to the restroom earlier. It was about 1 in the morning. And outside the bathroom door, I see a girl who lives on my floor. She was blowing bubbles and playing with them- trying to catch them and stuff. I love college.

Finally, this is still my favorite piece of logic in the world: Haruhi Suzumiya is a French aristocrat, therefore, I like pomegranites.  :D

I will leave you all now with a wonderful quote from Axis Powers: Hetalia (dubbed), because I can. And because it's awesome.
America (to Britain, concerning his new fighter jet plane bomber thing): "Thanks! It was actually created to help me beat the holy hell out of you, so I'm glad you dig its style!"
America's servant/advisor/guy: "'Scuse me, but was that information supposed to stay a secret?"
America: "It sure was!"

^Pretty much sums up my country.

I was in theater class yesterday, and we were all divided up into groups and had/have to do this presentation on a modern play. My group is doing Miss Julie, but that's irrelevant. Yesterday, one of the groups that presented was assigned the play Our Town, by Thorton Wilder. And part of the presentation includes doing a scene from the play, and, naturally, they choose the one where Emily goes to re-live her 12th birthday and... dammit, the actors weren't even that amazing, and I still nearly cried. The writing in that is just so amazing... it's just one of those pieces that just gets it. And it's exceptional and... and just. sjdlfkjsdlfkjsd. It's so good.

On a completely unrelated note, Haruhi Suzumiya is a French aristocrat, therefore, I like pomegranites. The logic is sound. No, really. It are fact. I know because of my learnings.

Lastly... you. Yes, you. You with the face. You need to visit these websites.
www.isthereazombieapocalypse.com
www.isitchristmas.com
www.doihaveswineflu.org
www.d-e-f-i-n-i-t-e-l-y.com 
www.wwwdotcom.com
It won't take much of your time, and they are SO worth it. Just. Trust me on this one? I promise that none of them have viruses or anything!

ETA: Ahaha, I lied. Paradisa. It's taking over my life, what the hell. Someone convince me to not app Data. Someone please do it. I don't have enough time for the awesome as it is, and it's not like he even has any castmates there but I've been on a kind of Star Trek kick recently, and Data is my favorite by a lot and it would be so much fun to have Data, the child of science, deal with a magical castle but I DON'T HAVE THE TIME SOMEONE HELP. Also, Paradisa gets its own tag now. For sheer awesome.

So, it stopped raining yesterday. I can actually go outside now and not drown. Do you have any idea how happy this makes me?? I can go outside and DO stuff and wear NICE clothes and be COMFORTABLE and NOT eternally wet.  8D

Yesterday was karaoke night at the Stein restaurant/lounge/thing we have on campus. And first, it very much did not escape my attention that we were in Stein. (I AM A PERVERT FOREVER.  8D) But then also... I was the first solo singer doing karaoke there. There were a bunch of groups of people who had gone, and then there was me and my newly found and growing and shifting but still awesome group of friends and we all did YMCA together, and I thought there were a few more people, but as it turns out, I went up right afterwards. I sang "And I'm Telling You I'm Not Going," from Dreamgirls. You know, the Jennifer Hudson song. I won't say that I rocked it, because it was a karaoke thing, and I totally screwed up, like, a third of the notes. But that being said... it still wasn't as awful as it could have been, singing wise. And since it was such a... showstopper kind of song, it was epic doing it for everyone there. And now, even the day after, people keep coming up to me, asking if I'll join one of the acapella groups on campus, or just telling me that I sang really well last night. I feel famous. It's awesome.  :D

Classes started yesterday, and they're pretty sweet. I have one huge lecture class- my Intro to Psych class- but it's still really interesting, and the teacher tries to make it as interactive as she can, so it's all good. And then there's my Spanish class where, honestly, I think I may have to move up a level. I think the level I'm signed up for now is just too easy, and that's... weird. I mean... I suck at Spanish, and foreign languages in general. But there you are. And I also had my Defining Satire class yesterday as well, and for the second half of the class, we had to do a writing diagnostic essay about satire, and... I ended up staying an extra 15 minutes, just so I could finish up what I was writing. I mean, once I got started on Family Guy and The Daily Show and The Colbert Report... I just really went off about them. In a good way. But I did. So when I finally got up to give my teacher the essay (I was one of the last two people to leave, by the way) I just handed it to him and was all "...I'm sorry."  XD

I haven't had my Intro to Theater class yet ... but I'm still signed up to audition for the fall musical, and I am excite. Just sayin'.

Also... I know that I used to talk about how I wanted a boyfriend incessantly, but... it's changed now. Especially after my last... ah... romantic foray in which I utterly screwed up, I just don't want a romantic relationship with anyone currently in my life. By which I mean, someone who I see on a daily basis, or something similar. And yet... I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know how I'm doing it... and it could just be me being concieted and thinking mostly of myself again. But... I think two of the guys in my new friend group like me. And... I don't want them to! They'd be awesome friends, but that's all I want! But now, just... ugh. I just wish I knew what I'm doing right... and how I can stop it. (Yes, incidentally, I do realize just how awesome of a problem this is. It's the kind of problem I would have loved just a few years ago. But... it is still a problem. And I want it to go away.)

One more thing here, and then I'll wrap up... because it's lunchtime, and I just realized that I haven't eaten for nearly 24 hours now aside from half of a potato with butter (which was wonderfully craptastic), and a few Skittles and M&Ms, so I should go eat. But... I don't know what to think about my roommates. They're both really, really sweet. They do care about being nice to those around them- if one of us is asleep, they'll be really quiet so as not to wake them up. And while we are a little communal with our stuff, they know not to be over the top, what's-yours-is-mine-since-we're-living-together. But... we have such different interests. Really, it's the two of them and me that have different interests. They're both fairly girly- refuse to go out without makeup on, constantly leave their flat iron and hair curler plugged in because they use them on a regular basis, etc. One of them also wants to pledge to a sorority, and while the other isn't sure, they're both out at frat parties every night. And they're not bad about them. They don't come home drunk, and they always invite me to go with them... like, they genuinely want me to be there. They're not pressuring, but whenever I give a reason why not to go to one, they try to help me find a way around my problem. But... I'm just not into that. And while they're both really nice and everything... I just never know what to say to them. The two of them will start talking about some frat party, or some guys there, or something about hair products and... I mean, the most I ever do with my hair is put it into a ponytail. Maybe for special occassions I'll blow-dry and/or straighten it, but... that's really rarely. And I'm just not all that into the frat scene. I would hypothetically consider pledging, but I honestly am not even close to 100% sure. And sometimes... I feel awkward, since I want to be close to them, but I just... have no idea what to say.

I suppose I should shut up about that one. I could have so many worse problems with my roommates. But... just because it's not that bad a problem doesn't mean that it isn't one.

Does that make any sense? Or is that just the lack of nutrients speaking? Yeah, I'm gonna go eat now.  XD

God, I have so many stories I'd love to tell.

The diversity meeting today.
Meeting my roommates.
Finding the others who are into geek culture and chilling with them.
Introducing one of them to Hetalia.
Introducing both of them to Baccano!.
The internet here.
Suddenly, it being okay to be what would have been considered a whore in high school.
Just... everything.

But... it's late, I'm tired... and both of my roommates are already asleep, so I figure I shouldn't stay up too much later myself.

So I will only say three statements, and then I'll go. If you want to hear the other stories... then I dunno, IM me/Skype me/comment on this, and I'll give them to you.  XD

-I am not a fan of the communal bathrooms. Particularly when they're halfway down the hall... and I'm all the way on the end.
-Only at Brandeis University will you not only have a DJ at a meeting about diversity (which, by the way, was amazing), but that same DJ will be an alum who now has a PhD in neuroscience and is working to find a cure for dyslexia.
-Jonesy, this one is for you: We each have an OL, or Orientation Leader. Mine did a semester of study abroad last year... in Brisbane. Yes, your Brisbane. Clearly, she met you and you two were best friends and you didn't tell me. I feel betrayed.  XD

...I've been awake way too long. I'm gonna go wash up and sleep now. 'Night everyone~

......Huh, I should update my tags on, like, my last ten entries. Eh. I'll get to it tomorrow.