I'll Try Defying Gravity

I'm a vain person. I've got to be honest with you all- I'm an incredibly vain person. I spend time working on how I look, when I care. (Weekday mornings do not count. I'm barely even human then- more zombie than human.) And it's because I like getting compliments, I like it when people look at me for just that nanosecond longer as I walk down the street, I like feeling pretty. And I do feel pretty most of the time- not to be narcissistic (vanity=/=narcissism) but I honestly believe that I am a really pretty girl. But when someone points that out, or tells me I look beautiful, I just... I love it. And honestly, who wouldn't?

So I went back to my old middle school today. (That last paragraph was relevant, I promise... just stick with it a little.) Me and a bunch of other people who went to that middle school who now all go to my high school... we went back to talk about our high school (go HSAS!) and tell the 8th graders why they should go there. And I was so very awkward in middle school. In a way, I'm glad none of the students there remember me- I barely want anyone to remember how I was then. But I was just... so awkward- practically mute, thinking I had real friends there when for the most part I didn't (Wesley, Tori... I love you guys!!), and with such terrible fashion sense... it was just so bad. Who I am now hates who I was then.

So to go back to Center School (my middle school), and have the teachers there look at me blankly, not recognize me and look away, then do a double take and go all "...Is that you?? You... you look so... you look good!!" Yeah, that's pretty sweet.

Whoever said that a teenager's life is a rollercoaster of emotions was wrong. It's a huge rollercoaster of emotions. No, it's beyond that, but we haven't invented anything more tipsy and turvy and curvy and wierd than that. Maybe I'm just PMSing, but still...
In just one hour, I have felt that my life ought to be a sitcom, I've been very happy, very annoyed, very wierd, very in love, and very much missing Center School. So basically I'm just confused.


And I know it's taken me forever to get to this, but I got my report card back, and my grades were good so THE TIMER WAS TAKEN OFF MY COMPUTER!!!!! Well, not entirely, I can only be on from 8 in the morning to 11 at night, and it's only for the summer that we're trying this out, so if I'm on here all the time then the timer will be put back on, but still it's off and I'm free! I'm almost like every other person my age in terms of privilages!
And I missed camp today because I had to go to school. I know, fun. I'm actually kind of pissed off that I missed a whole day of camp to not hear my teachers giving out awards that I didn't get. And with my luck, auditions are tomorrow, so I didn't know they were coming up. However, I'll still try. I can sing the part that I think our director is going to want us to do pretty well, and I think I can read the parts well. It's just the dance: I don't get dance to begin with, and the dance our choreographer taught us yesterday was particularly annoying to learn. Especially in 90+ degree weather without an air conditioner. I really got spoiled last year, with the AC in our studio and not having a junior group, so we were the only group doing our show. I will simply have to rough it this year... and bring lots of water.